Thankful for Failure
Every Thanksgiving we take time to reflect on how life is treating us. We ask ourselves what can we find that is positive in our life to be thankful for? For me, it has been the list of usual suspects; my husband, my friends, my job, ect.... I usually pick what brings me the most joy and what makes me the happiest. This year is a little different. With my personal goal these past few months being to practice daily gratitudes, I have found that gratitude shouldn't just be reserved for the warm and fuzzies in life. In fact the time when I find myself practicing gratitude the most is when something doesn't go according to plan. Life's little mishaps and unexpected turns have taught me more about gratitude this year than anything else. When my son ends up sleeping an extra hour for his afternoon nap and I won't have time to go out with him to run an errand I planned on, I pause and breath. I am grateful that I have a son, I have a car in which I can go run errands in and that I had an extra hour of "me" time to possibly even squeeze in a short nap for myself. When work is slow because of the holiday season and most people decide to take a break until January, I am often faced with an extremely limiting budget, anxiety that I wont be able to make ends meet and self doubt that may be I am not a "good enough" trainer. I pause and breathe. I decide that I am going to be grateful for this slow period. I can be grateful that I have more free time to focus on other projects and spend more time with my son before the inevitable January rush arrives. I can be grateful that I have time this holiday season to slow down and be more present with my family and friends. I am often asked if I regret suffering from an eating disorder and today I can honestly say, NO! In fact, one of the things I am currently most grateful for is struggling with an eating disorder. It has made me the person I am today and I love that person. So this year I would like to thank all of life's mishaps and even "failures" because inevitably these so-called unpleasant and negative twists and turns always end up being Gods blessings in disguise. When I stop to breath and welcome all things, both the good and the bad, the bad cease to exist and in its place a renewed sense of strength and calm enter in. Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!